I can't remember having ever cried about a celebrity passing, but today, for the first time, I did! I can't describe how sad I am about Amy Winehouse's death!! Maybe the fact that it seemed so avoidable, and that there was always the hope inside of me, she'd make it eventually and defeat her addiction, is what makes it even worse, or the fact that she was only 2 years older than myself.
I'm not sure, all I know is that the world lost a "once in a generation" talent!! To compare her to others would do her no justice!! The feeling for a song and the brutally honest, heart breaking and most of all brilliantly well put lyrics, combined with her voice and the way she sung them made them those unique masterpieces, tugging at your heartstrings, that will last!!
I once heard her say in an interview that she didn't write songs because she wanted her voice to be heard or because she wanted to be famous, but only because she needed an emotional outlet.
And that pretty much sums it up, she never made a fuss about her person, her talent or her work, which everybody praised as genious, she said "I'm not that important, I'm just a gal that sings, you know what I mean, it's not brain surgery" I think it was rather the other way around, I don't know if she was ever aware of how brilliant she really was...and maybe never wanting all the attention combined with her seemingly low self esteem (not sure if that is the right word for it) was what broke her in the end. She obviously didn't give a fuck about what people thought or what was in the papers about her, she had more of a punk rocker attitude about it, which is what made me love her even more. But having the whole world lusting after a new excess or fall from grace and almost laughing at your state of health or mind, waiting in front of your house, while struggeling with your personal problems doesn't neccessarily make it easier I suppose.
It broke my heart to see her on stage on drugs, underselling herself, not being able to shine because she was too drunk or high, beeing booed and having the world laugh at her misery while she seemed to be more and more lost and alone.
But that is not what should be remembered, but rather the real Amy, the one who was incredibly talented, an amazing songwriter and singer, charming, funny and who lived in the moment and didn't give a shit: "I've come to the realisation that life is short, you might aswell enjoy it" and I bet she did!!!
♥AMY FLIES IN PARADISE♥
She spoke until one day she couldn't be heard
She just stopped singing
Amy was the morning, now she's gone
She's reborn like Sarah Vaughan
!!!RIP Amy, we will miss you!!!
